Retrospectives: broken & empty

broken and empty in words / escaping lips that have tasted this bitter drink / and yet I still stand / and I still sing / with a heart that is tainted / I call out to you / like I keep you there / but I don't / I keep you at arms length / or further / buried in the darkest corner of my soul / so I don't have to feel / and when I sing these words / broken and empty / I fall down / I'm smacked in the face by humility / reminded that I'm worse than nothing / an dI don't feel real in my skin / and I can't breathe in this body / this thing that keeps me from you / I can't bring myself to your grace / I'm alone / its my fault / and I don't know how to ask for forgiveness / I don't know how to let you back in / how can I stand / break me and fill me / oh Lord / piece me together with your grace / and fill me with your love / and show me who you are / because my fragile human spirit / needs to be reminded