Retrospectives: this is...this is...this is...

i curled up with razorsthis is the end this is the end here we go…down the hill…living life for every thrill that we shouldn't be living this life for this blanket keeps me warm wrapped in hate wrapped in guilt wrapped in everything I know I did wrong and this is my sorry this is my i give up this is my last resort this is me…on my knees…wishing you would see…all that this means i wont fail to breathe in this gas drown in this sea hang in this noose drink down this sin that i poured for myself this is my goodbye this is my runaround this is my defense this is me hiding deeper and farther than you would ever come this is me pushing you further they say old habits die hard…i say burn habits burn i say the harder you try the farther you fall so i fall into new beginnings with the hardest part still ahead and learning how to be me again …this is it…