perplexicon

I don't know. I am going to try to write this whole entry in proper grammar and punctuation form. That sentence was probably grammatically incorrect already. Oh well. So somehow, I always flip when that episode is on, and I don't like to watch it because it makes me want to do it. Which is so weird, because emotionally, I'm not broken up, or upset or depressed or whatever. I'm perfectly fine, I just have these desires. It really is like an addiction. Like heroin. I don't think it's about negative emotions for me anymore, I think it's more of an physical dependence, or an emotional dependence, where I feel like I crave it. I would imagine that heroin addicts can feel their blood pulse through their veins when they have a craving. That is sort of how I feel. I can feel every milliliter of blood in my body all at once. I need a new addiction. Something to get my mind off of this one. I was thinking perhaps my newfound faith could help in that department, however I have not the means to study it. There is only so much you can get from the Internet, and it is so distracting. Otherwise I would have written an essay today, and done my Math homework. But that didn't happen. I also need to focus on school. Finals are looming, and I am way behind. I need to squeeze an A out of my ass on my English final if I want to get a C in the class. And who knows what I got on my Math midterm because Lal hasn't handed them back. Dorman needs some work as well, but I have assignments due, it's not a critical situation like the others. History is a shoo-in because I got a B+ on the midterm, so as long as I don't BOMB the final, I will be fine. Theater sucks, but I have only a final presentation left, so I'll wing it. It's not going to stop, until you wise up.