run away

i need a change. i want to run away. i mean run..i could really pick it all up, say PEACE and be on my way. i hate to say it..i hate to i hate to i hate to..but its plaguing my thoughts.. i want to be honest with you..the two people that are closest to me, physically and emotionally.. but i can't. i don't want to hurt you. maybe if i could say it to your face.. it would sound so heartless here. i want a lot of things..a rare few am i actually receiving, and even those are in little amounts. i need to change something about myself..maybe its me. i really don't know. part of me thinks you wont understand..part of me thinks you never did.