i want to be saved..

i feel like a different person.. all twisted and contorted into all sorts of shapes and figures, and each person i see sees something different in me.. i need a change..i'm going to do my hair, dye it some weird color, cut it all off, shave my head something like that. i want to go shopping and spend all my money, i want a reason for why i feel like shit.. this is why it scares me so. i feel like shit, but for no reason. i just hurt all over and i can't explain.