numb

i have been feeling something the last week or so. i haven't quite been able to put my finger on it. essentially, i haven't been excited about Easter celebrations (which normally i love), i haven't been eager to get cracking on haiti preparations, i haven't had motivation to deal with UW, etc. today i finally figured it out. numb. i have been numb. i am still at a loss as to why, and what the root causes are. perhaps it has to do with all the changes around me. who knows. i've added this to my list of hopes/goals for haiti. introspection and time to figure this out. my hope is that its a relatively easy process. i look forward to the day when my self-awareness is at a level where i can have something happen and connect within minutes what i think, what i want, what i feel, and what i should do.