sad

my grandma's house is all cleaned out. only major furniture left. its really sad that all their stuff is gone, and that my dad and my aunt are fighting. i feel so helpless. my dad's being just sad. he's seeing a berevement councelor, so hopefully that helps him. i want him to be happy. but i know i am not the person who can do that. i want to hang out with loren again. i need to meet new people. i guess loren and i are hanging out tomorrow, going to a show or something. the show is kinda bootsie though, maybe we will do something else. after our conversation the other day, i think i understand him a lot better. why he did some of the things he did, etc. i think it will be good for me to have a friendship with him. there's really no more attraction there, and i'm happy to say it. i'm a different person, he's a different person, it just might be the right time for friendship. here's hoping. i can't wait for school to start. i miss the bustle.