seasons 2010

for the past 5 years or so, i've recognized a pattern in my mental/emotional/spiritual health around this time of year, which i reflected on about this time last year. every year i like to think i've moved on and broken this pattern, but every year it surprises me. this year is no exception. i've already begun to realize the choices i've made that are perpetuating this cycle. i am determined not to let it last this year. i want to be making choices that break the cycle. this thanksgiving holiday was my indulgence this year. from this point forward i am repenting of this behavior. all i know is that its going to take an active turning away from and combatting of the mental state that i fall into that keeps me stuck here. i really don't like the way i feel during these times. it takes me back to times i'd rather not relive. so here's to breaking the cycle