questions

i've been re-living the past in the form of reading old blog entries. I've come a long way. that, and a couple recent conversations, as well as inner thoughts and feelings, have led me to the point of wrestling with a few questions. -am i actually being the person i want to be? -there are parts of this whole "community" thing that i'm not quite digging right now. are these legitimate concerns, and what can i do to make it better/live like i want to live and not flowing with the current? -have i made the positive changes that i have claimed i've wanted to make? etc. these are just a couple of things i'm thinking about. i'll elaborate when i have clearer ideas and answers.